It's very happy to have one friend regain contact with ,especially the one I cared years before.
I was thinking to get closer as best friend, however things getting 'warm' when I get praises or teases and speechleS's emotion from it.
The feeling returned.
why I can be so happy to see it replying my messages although I feel like myself is annoying.
how would I be that overjoyed when it reappear and reply that it's away for some reasons as I thought it's leaving like it doesn't care.
I know how it thinks about me, and our relationship will not be more than that...
All I want is just a best friend ? A people to talk and crap with?
Or just a friend? To prevent myself from drowning and ending up with loneliness when it leaves me for own love
I understand how upset it will be when the day comes,just like few years ago.
Disappointment and feeling of inferiority haunted me, wishing it will give me a chance to have it beside me.
A lot of misunderstanding and illusion came to me as it always did something that I thought I've own everything.
Again and again I have to tell myself, it means nothing to it.
Sigh.
What the hell...
I should control myself.
